i can say that the last few months haven't been particularly easy for me. my grandmother, who was not only one of my emotional stands but also supported me economically, passed away while i was going through one of my biggest crisis.
there hasn't been a day since that moment, when i haven't felt completely overwhelmed, lost or melancholic. economic reasons might sound somehow frivolous, yes. however, i dare you (you? no one ever read this blog, haha) walk in my shoes... specially when everyone is putting so much pressure on you. uggg.
my psychologist said there would be days like these. days when i'd have to deal with the fact that my devils are playing stronger than my angels... we haven't worked on how to deal with them yet, but i can tell that she meant days like today.
on the other hand, i keep getting amazing signals that everything i'be built since my real life started (and that is excactly seven years ago) is here to stay. that i have it. that is mine. that is next to me. that im not alone.
my key was to find place and stay there to see what happened. the results are hard to compare or explain.
there's a song out there saying home is where the heart is.
